Sunday, November 28, 2004
not getting better.. my throat hrts each time i cough.. n now im sneezing n hingus meleleh.. ew.. k nvm.. ARGH! still haf to go jln raya.. argh..
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10:46:00 AM
Friday, November 26, 2004
had a fuuuunnn dae!! went out wif vy n nora.. hehe.. nora was so kesian! gt blisters on her foot.. hehe.. take care gerl..
manz.. feeling lyk shit.. my throat is itching n sore.. my voice is lyk hoarse.. i feel choked.. cough.. argh.. i hate being sick.. better drink more plain water.. argh.. juz great..
sori din reli update.. juz gt nuthing to sae.. n no time oso.. my bro juz keeps on hogging the com.. oh wells.. anw, i don tink many read my blog animore.. nt many r tagging anw.. so i dunno if they read my blog.. so malas nak update sgt..
sick of being tired~
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9:07:00 PM
Monday, November 22, 2004
juz saw the comercial for true files for dis week.. wahlau.. break my heart manz.. its abt a kid being abused badly by his father n the kid died cos of the bruises.. it was so bad.. it was horrible.. he was made to strip naked n was beaten n his dad lighted his cigarettes n pressed it on him.. he bled.. bled so much.. oh gosh.. i tink im emotional.. im gonna cry! its so sad to c these abused children. its so heartbreaking.. i juz felt tat if i was der i wud take him in my arms n comfort him n bring him awae frem his dad.. haish.. so sad manz..
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8:06:00 PM
Friday, November 19, 2004
haha.. khair called me up.. initiated to tok for a long time.. bt cudnt.. theres 3 small kids in front of me rite now still.. playing so violently.. hahha.. so dramamtic they wae they fall juz to get my attention.. haha.. so hyperr!! super super! haha.. hw cute!! haha.. they juz keep on laughing loudly.. they n their world.. hehe.. so extreme.. wen they're hapie.. they're super hapie.. wen they're sad.. they wail!! haha.. nt cry bt wail! haha.. hw adorable.. khair gave up cos fater awhile i juz keep on going 'huh?' haha.. i juz cudnt hear him.. n he was saying 'kuatnye budak2 tu! haha' hehee.. so true.. haiz.. they're so innocent.. i wan cute babies of my own! hehehe.. they took lots of sweets frem my hm! haha.. then laugh wen i tease them! so cute! hahaha.. all 3 beradiks pakai sama baju.. ehhe.. super adorable.. i can juz go on n sae hw adorable toddlers are.. bt i shall nt.. hehe..
am baby! im super happie for u! hehee.. hey miss u gerl! cant wait to meet up wif u n fana! hehehe.. n fana naj oso! hehe.. miss u guys! hehe.. go collection cos i wan more money! hehe..
n huda! i luv the smaller bag! hehe.. thx gerl! go shopping! haha.. i use to hate shopping bt as i grow i guess im getting use to shopping n enjoying it lagik! hahah.. oh wells.. gerls rite? haha.. bt guys oso lyk shopping! haha.. bt yea.. shoppiong wif frens r fun!
weeeeeeeeee~
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10:43:00 PM
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight
And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t
Another day wasted out of time
I can't get out of this
Altered state of mind
I'm going overboard
My conscience meets decline
Into reality
I know this can't be fine
Cause I'm all messed up
Making perfect nonsense
Drowning in my doubt
Too well
Cause I'm all messed up
Going nowhere fast
These circles in my mind
So blind
seems negative huh? well, theres times tat everyone feels dis wae huh.. against life u noe.. tinking of it juz so negatively..juz cos theres problems.. problems tat can make u feel so helpless cos u juz cant do anithing to solve them.. sumtimes u try so hard to find a solution bt u noe u cant.. u can juz tink, cry n hope.
often, i question do i haf a part to play in other pple's problems.. does it occur bcos i was ignorant to the cracks tat are alredi forming? the faults tat are oredi showing frem the cause of the problem ..
-juz wish i cud haf seen the change in her sooner n stop her frem turning out tat wae. wish i cud juz haf a been a big sis n advice her. wish i didnt influence her n sumhow she turned out worst. wish wish wish.. ~wish u haf stayed the same. i admit.. im guilty even if i dont play a big role in creating the mess in ur life. wished u juz haf a brain too. stupid wishes. nw everything is in chaos. further famili segregation i foresee.
-famili
facing this problems n learning to cope wif them aint easy. patience n constant praying to God to help me guide thru life n b strong in coping wif myself,my life n my surroundings. it aint easy.
guess its very vague huh? tats all i gonna sae.. im nt gonna deny n pretend as if im living a gd life. cos im nt as hapie as u see me outside. tats all i'll confess.
the songs r sad cos i relate to those songs. wad i feel. wad im going thru. dont pity me.
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1:01:00 AM
Monday, November 15, 2004
lack of slp......
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2:10:00 AM
Friday, November 12, 2004
hey peeps, juz wanna wish all of u guys SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!! wanna apologise to all for all the wrong doings or insults tat ive done or say to u guys! sori ya? haf fun on ur hari raya n lets meet up many days so tat we can go collect more money okie? hehehe.. dont forget to come to my house then k?
im so tired... ~ =|
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9:26:00 PM
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
All the days collided
One less perfect than the next
I was stuck inside someone else's life and always second best
Oh, I love you now 'cause now I realize
That it's safe outside to come alive in my identity
So if you're listening
There's so much more to me you haven't seen
I was living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
I'm living in a new day
I'm living it for me
And now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally be
So don't feel sorry for me
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8:48:00 PM
HAPIE BDAE FANA!!!!!!! hehe.. luv ya lots gerl!!
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8:24:00 PM
Monday, November 08, 2004
one thing i hate bt hari raya.. xtra nagging frem parents.. cant take it manz.. so tired of it! =| oh wellsss...
hey fana! hapie bdae in advance gerl!
k ar.. i donno wad to update.. nt dunno ar.. had sumthing in mind juz now.. bt too malas to write.. slamatz
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11:44:00 PM
Friday, November 05, 2004
leandra is out.. hmmph.. i felt tat daphne shud haf been kicked out.. i dont noe y bt her voice doesnt appeal me.. theres no spirit in her voice.. n her face is juz expressionless.. k i guess i some peeps wud disagree wif me bt dis is my point of view n i'll sae wad i feel.. bt oh well, the lil gerl got kicked out.. she hasnt been doing well aniwae.. anw, taufik is damn gd n sylvester is cute.. i support both of them.. they're juz gd.. bt i tink they wont survive the world idol.. put them bside the malaysian idol n indonesian idol.. dont tink spore idol can match up wif them.. im nt toking biasly.. bt i did watched the finale of malaysian idol n i haf to admit tat she's gd.. she has a powerful voice tat amazes people.. oh well.. enof said huh..
9 more daes to hari raya.. m nt redi at all.. dunno y.. bt dis yr im lyk so emotionless.. i accept the arrival of Ramadhan n Syawal lyk any other months.. i dunno y.. im sad im feeling dis wae.. i wan to look forward to ramadhan especially.. bt i guess theres no use forcing n pretending as if i do.. trying to believe tat u feel tat wae wen u noe tat ure nt feeling tat wae..
to my pw mates:
thx for the interesting journey.. the ups n downs.. alwaes be remembered. the frenship we held on.. the frustrations. the laughters. the satisfaction. everything we shared. great time spent wif u guys. knowing u more as a fren n nt juz as a classmate. we haf achieve gd results n im proud to sae, im proud to be in grp TP161. =)
to ellia:
tis journey thru PW has made our bond stronger. saw each other every single dae. getting frustrated at julian n pw n our St.. part n parcel of our journey. thx for everything. u make a gd team member n a gd buddy. luv ya gerl. =)
Have you ever been in love?
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away
You'd give anything, oh
To make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart?
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
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11:22:00 PM
k now im pissed.. theres sumthing wrong wif blogspot. i wrote twice my entry n it din get published! instead gt erased! argh..
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10:19:00 PM
me... bored..
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
im in skool rite now.. doing Op.. boring giler.. ellia bside me is complaining bt Op.. hahaha.. n shes reading dis.. truirkvtfrhjdecrotfdhgrudr - her form of protest! gileerr! haha.. k tat wan i sae..
aniwae, gonna go meet fana,amrels,jo, fana naj n dzaf todae.. yea! so exciting! gonna go geylang n eat at arnolds.. wheres arnolds? tak pernah seh makan kat situ.. haha.. i noe wad fana sae is tat tempat tu ader ayam! haha.. bleah.. most place pun jual ayam lar! haha.. bt it helps? hahahaha.. im crazee.. ohh.. nw i get wad ellia trying to tell me! tat arnolds is lyk kfc! n wad does kfc sell? chicken!!! hahahahaha.. shes laughing crazeeely.. haha.. ;) n cant stop luffing! n crying! gembeng pulak si ellia! hahaaha.. tolerating me.. hahah..
WANI IS BORED.
TGNKLAH BULAN PUASER DIER BUAT KEJE BODOH O_o (ps: mata cacat! -wani)
for those clueless n slow ones, tat was ellia! hahaha.. we're juz bored! she is suppose to correct her script! go shoo!! hahahaha.. sori el! luv ya! hahaha..
facing a pretty tough time rite now.. bleeding.. bt its ok.. im fine.. gotta be strong.. gotta haf faith.. juz need God to help me..to haf faith in me.. to enlighten me.. bt im ok =)
~ive become so numb
-i hate linkin park.. ishh.. haha..
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3:53:00 PM
